Nail polish remover

Painted my nails for DND Halloween's theme, that I left my nail polish remover on my mirror table there. After bathing, wanting to apply toner, I took the cotton to tap on the nail polish remover n almost wanted to apply that on my face!!! Lucky I am sharp enough to sense that someth not right. After that, faster kept that nail polish remover in the shelf ahz.

Nice song...

Find this song nice. The lyrics realli express what gals would do while in courtship. Does the guys actualli noe? Affair of the heart is just a very difficult topic to understand.

歌曲：我的错
歌手：b.a.d 专辑：梦的起点

作词:杨明学作曲:minski

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
荒侵质?
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

歌手：潘玮柏 歌曲：我让你走了

回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
因为爱你我让你走了

Th that I blame myself for..

When things go wrong, my 1st reaction is to reflect, reflect on what had I done wrong to cause this? As I grow older, slowly, my mindset also changed. Last time, I tends to see what had others done wrong, but now, I will reflect upon my own actions. 2day on the way to work, was still in thoughts. There r a lot of things that I realli blame myself for...

MY Trip: Was feelin nei4 jiu4 still... I still rem the nei4 jiu4 feeling while I am in MY, that somehow I wish I didnt go n was in SG at that moment. B4 goin, was still strugglin for a decision to go or not, as my assignment is also due very soon... @ times, bcos of my "zhe2 ren4 gan3" that I proceed on w/o being sensitive enough to ppl around. Somehow, I find myself to be very selfish... too much "zhe2 ren4 gan3" that I neglect other ppl's feeling n the situation...

Asking too much questions: I realli have little faith/trust. Many a times, just to have an answer to my questions, I would ask a lot of questions. Is bcos I am unsure, I need assurance. Wat cos this is bcos of my phobia that cauing this uneasiness... I hope the other person noe what I am going thr also, tryin to battle this phobia. If I had known that it is causing stress, I would had bear with it no matter how uneasy I felt till the feeling slowly tide down...

Another thing is that when feeling emotional, it is best not to talk too much. Bear with it 1st, till the emotions, thoughts settle down, then to take a look at the situaion again. No matter how tough, had to bear with it... else, it will be indirectly causin ourselves n ppl stress... Cos when we r emotional, most of the time the things that we say r not rational... N we will not be looking at the situation in a reational way also...

I realli blame myself for these... However, after identifying these thoughts within me, I felt slightly better now... What cannot be undone had been done, these r the area that I should improve on... I realli learnt the lesson of life... These r the th that I blame myself... but there is 2 side to a coin... If there is a response to the situation, maybe things would turn out like this? Slowly also understand that there r a lot of factors leading to the final outcome of things. @ times, will still feel bad, but go to slowly let go of these blame n move on.

Cockroach!

Didnt have dinner n went to bed early. Who noe during midnight, I woke up feeling hungry. Thus, went to the kitchen to grab some biscuit to eat. Later my mum come out to see what happens, y is e kitchen light onz? Later, she was laughing at me, middle of the night feeling hungry.

After that heard my brother calling my mum. So, there a cockroach in his room!!! My mum helped him to catch it. After finishing my biscuit, I went to to take a look as well... Felt so funny, 3 person being fool by a little cockroach. Trying to see where it fly to.

I was there helping to keep an outlook for it as well. Later when the cockroach fly, me n my bro ran out of the room. hahahaha... me was laughing. So funny... we all much bigger size than the cockroach, but was scare of it!!! In e end, the cockroach crawl to living room where I faster went to my room n shut the door.

Nv had a hearty laugh like this for quite some time. haha. For a moment, it clear my gloomy emotions. Later in the middle of the night, I heard shouting again. The cockroach is disturbing them again. haha.

I need a Teddy Bear Hugz

I had always been busy with a lot of things... that now i felt I need to slow down a bit my footstep and re-adjust myself. Most of the time when I feeling sad, I will hide the feeling, still treat as nothing happen like that, still will joke joke laugh laugh. However now, I have a different stand. I think it is okie to feel sad and don need to hide it...

After a few days when I stop asking why, the emotion slowly settle down n I felt the pinch. Past few days, had been trying hard to fight my emotions and to think what causes things to turn out this way? Realli think a lot.. as I realli wish to bu3 jiu4 the situation. I am quite li3 zhi4 in my thinking... Encourage the person...

I think it had become a habit for me le, to think of these encouraging words in time of down moment n to put my emotions behind 1st. However, I felt that it is not realli very healthy... Looking strong on the surface, which inside, my emotions is very messy. Y act so strong? I think at times, it is realli okie to show the soft side of a person.

Felt for a break to nurse myself back... lucky that these days I can dont face it for a few days.. till next week... Else, with my character I surely put on a brave front again, treating everyth normal and puttin on a very brave front. One thing is bcos don wan anybody to worry... but, sometime in msn chat, I gif myself away... 2 hard... need somebody to chat.

In office, my mind tend to wander away n during meeting, I am trying hard to keep my eyes open n no to doze off. Realli mei2 you3 jing1 shen2. Also don noe y like I take things so hard? Ya, maybe is I cant let go... Very li3 zhi4 know that it take 2 hands to clap, but still I am clinging on to it.

Yap, mayb bocs it's the emotion attached to it. Things happens too fast n before I realli get into the situation another thing happens. Is like ur hope, love, looking forward to being shattered. Wont be sad ma? I don noe... but now thoughts more settle down n wont go ask y anymore. I need a Teddy Bear Hugz...

珍惜这缘分

喜欢一个人就好好的去爱她。不要让她伤心或 感到不安。。。要一起去面对眼前的困难，而 不是因为一点小困难就放弃。。。毕竟，喜欢 一个人不是两三天的事，好好的珍惜在一起的 缘分。

好好的去珍惜在一起的缘分：
- 让（她/他）了解你的不好心情不是因为（她/他）。
- 虽然忍不住发脾气了，之后记得让（她/他）知道：其实你不是故意的，只是一时冲动，需要发泄情绪。
- 如果你的想法和（她/他）不同，不要生气。因为两个人都没错，只是看事情的角度不同吧了。
- 接受和忍耐（她/他）的缺点。让（她/他）知道，但不要责怪（她/他）。
- 接受（她/他）的性格，或许就是这性格吸引你。不要求（她/他）为你改变，但你能为了（她/他）而改变，成一个更好的人。
- 好好的去关心（她/他）。。。

毕竟，喜欢一个人不是两三天的事，要一起去面对眼前的困难，而不是因为一点小困难就放弃。。。还记得当初是怎么在一起的吗？好好的珍惜这个的缘分。深深的祝福。。。

Now I understand e feeling of e need to be alone

Onli now then I understand this feeling... @ times when U feel realli lousy, U realli jus wish to be alone... In the past I realli don understand. When I see ppl feelin down, very naturally, I would walked forward to talk to them, hoping to cheer them up. Even though being scolded by them I also don mind, as after they scold me, they might feel better also. I think I am indeed very silli.

This work for some ppl n will realli brighter up their day, but not for all. Everybody have different character, some ppl when feeling lousy jus wish to be alone n not to be disturbed. Onli till now then I realise it... When feelin lousy, talkin to some ppl, it would onli cause more harm then help... n might spoil the mood. sobz. Now, I learnt... a very very hard lesson learnt.

I think it's all my fault... If I had not been so "determine" to chat or to go out, maybe it will not lead to such "strange or somethin missin feeling" Wat to do? @ that moment, I am just feeling bu4 an1 bcos of my phobia haunting me... which beside hopin to cheer up, i hope to re-assure of these cold moments... I am scare of the cold/lousy attitude from...

2day, spent the whole day @ home, as realli felt the need to be alone. Now, then I experience the need not to be disturb. @ this time when I am realli feelin real lousy, I realli dislike ppl disturbing me... Packed my room, of my wardrobe and a bit of my desk. Throw away quite a lot of things which in the past I cant bear to throw...

Was silent by myself and slowly accepting the fact. I cant blame anybody... as once, years ago, when I was immature, I did this to another person and hurt him as well. Which actualli leads to the 2nd phobia that I had, carried with me for abt 10 years. I am sorry... all the while I realli felt sorri abt it... As was still immature... Hope things R well for him now...

I thought now as we are more mature, this wont happen... *cold laugh* Though sad abt the situation that happens, I got to accept it. Hope for a change though... This realli teaches me a lot of things n I realli slient down my thoughts, reflecting...

需要时间静下来

给我一点时间静下来。 虽然表面看起来很ok， 但内心有点乱，因为有很多的不了解。。。觉得你不会是这样的一个人。。。

In a glare...

Hadn't been blogger for a Looong time... as was busy... these days realli happens a lot of things... Sometime things happens too fast b4 I can realli acknowledge it past and other things came along. This is part of life baz. Everyth that happens, be it gd or bad, i is teaching us someth... Though might be hard n with lot of emotions, still must be thankful, as it add on to the colour of our life journey. Give thanks to whoever that help us grow and mature... =)