It's a Sunday!

Early mornin when I am half awake, in my mind, I was thinking "Oh no, I forgot to set my alarm last night, would I be late for work?" Lookin outside the window, it is quite bright le, faster to check my HP clock, it it 6.55am. Still in time, thus, laze on bed a while thinking what should I wear later? How should I start my day at work? N also of the work that I got to work on 2day.

When I was just abt to wake up n to take my office wear for a bath, I recalled that, a... I think I had not pass a Sunday yet... Ya, 2day is still Sunday, not Monday!!! Lucky ah, else, I would bathe n rush out for work. My mum would be still asleep n nobody to remind me that 2day is a Sunday! Such a joke, if I reached my work place n there is nobody there. haha...

Thus, to get bk to sleep. It is always greAt on a Sunday if there are no activity aligned for me. I could sleep more! After havin my lunch, me went Akira Sale to look for XM! Walked all the way there under this sunny weather n was sweating... Phew~ There r a lot of things at e warehouse sales n they are selling cheap. e warehouse area reminded me of the times when I once worked in a factory.

There is a hourly sales, when things like LCD TV, portable dvd player, Hi-Fi system, selling at a low price! The compare will be on stage announcing e original price n next e discount price. Later they will pass out the coupon for ppl who r interested to grab them. The response is very good ah. Little kids cannot stand infront of the stage, thus, very dangerous when all the adults rushed in!

Lucky that there was shuttle bus bk to JE. It was rainin heavily by this time n I do not carry an umbrella with me. On this journey, I felt disturbed by thoughts again. Thoughts abt someth which I still cant fully let go. While waitin for e mrt, told myself, since this is e final outcome n I alr had an ans n decision yest, I must persist on it. There is no pt if I still hold on to it.

Went Tiong Bahru n bought a laptop bag. haha... Didnt plan to buy one de, but saw that it is quite nice, thus bought it. Later to ah ma hse. While we r walking to the flat, I heard somebody calling. We looked up, it is my auntie at the kitchen window, saying that we came le. Walking to the carpark, we met up with another cousin n her kids. haha.. so qiao. So one big grp of us went up 2gether!

My last visit here was months ago. Nice to be bk to a familiar environment that I grow up in. It seems very re4 nao4 with my relatives they all chatting, the little kids playin n us in the room chattin, joking. A place that I can relax. Realli nice... qin1 qing2 ke3 gui4! Nice to see my cousins growing up le... ya, n me also grown. Growing up process is full of laughter n tears that everybody will experience. Encounters make us wiser. =)

I learnt...

Emotion is like the unpredictable weather. Does feeling changes so fast? N that ppl actualli don understand what their feeling is? Yes, there r ppl like that. Numbness... I once experienced this numbness also. It's when I felt too hurt that I don noe my feelin anymore. After that, e emotions settle in. After that still being disturbed by things, as I was still not determine enough... innocent.

That day, I had a strong heart, felt that I am no longer being bothered by it. Who noe.. after that I felt uneasy n I noe that I failed the test. ku3 xiao4. My friend advise me that affairs of the heart cannot be so draggy de. Yes, mean yes, no mean no, do not be so wishy mushy... that will cause more hurt. If is no, must set the determination to stop it.

I am surprised... Something that U felt U care abt still hanging on to it, the other person might felt that it is nothing. So fast?! Thinkin in the other person's shoe, thought that the other person is still being hurt by things n still thought of helpin the person pull out from it... haha... but it seems not n I felt like being slapped on the face. This time it is not affecting me too much... harsh? It's not the 1st time that I experience that, alr used to it le.

Blame it on myself, everytime at the wrong timing? That realli too qiao3 le, 5 times, 3 times like that. Don ever wan to talk abt that anymore, it caused me confusion n make me so silli. In the 1st place shldnt U express urself clearly? I think I am compliacted, but U are even more compliacted n don noe what U R thinking n want. Don ever to provoke me, else I would gif u two slaps on the face. I had enough of things.

I changed le... I learnt to be more humble... I learnt to be more understanding... I learnt not to agure with ppl, as there is no right or wrong. ppl r jus lookin at things from different angle... I leanrt to take a step back at things... I learnt to face my own obstacles... I learnt that I must change my own flaws as not to caused stress to others...

Dressing up

There r 2 scenario where I would dress up. One is for occasions/ppl, the other one is when I am not feeling too good. Not feeling too good might be bcos of stress or not feeling too good of myself, then I would tend to wear long earrings or play/style my hair in a different way... to have a slightly different look from nrmal days. lolz. it's a form of stress reliever for me.

Exams r over!

My mum feedback that finally I noe how to laugh le. She mentioned that previously, I look so black face, now exams finished le, I smile le. haha... Yap, partly is bcos of exams stress.. but not all of it. Durin the exams period, was realli very tough... realli could not concentrate on exams... When studyin, mind will be distracted by things again.

Exams are conducted at expo. I need to leave my hse 2 hr b4 the exam start time ah. 3rd Nov, 1st day of exam, Got gd luck sms... happi but take a step bk... as didnt wan it to affect my mood... Had 2 papers, each 2 hrs. After the 1st paper, felt a bit shag, but remind myself got to hang on till the next paper. 1 hr break n was feelin super hungry! While workin on the 1st paper, my stomach gowl ah!~ After the 2nd paper, bk hm, working hard for the next day paper.

After my last paper on 4th Nov, felt tired... haha... but was feeling relieve that finally the exams are over!!! The exmas though is open book, it is hard. Jus gald that it is over n jus wait for results now. I realli need to re-adjust myself le. Physical n mentally tired. I need more rest... n need to sort out n clear my thoughts... n jus need more rest n jus more rest!