Motivation

I need to find some motivation. What can motivate me? External things will make me happy, but that will only last for a while. haha... Tat time was feeling realli lousy and I carried a carebear with me. Sunshine bear! Given by my cousin. When I am feeling down, I will take it out and it realli brighten up my days! Slowly, I am more okie le and I left tat carebear at home.

Keep finding a lot of ways to overcome the lousy feeling. Like listening to mp3, playing facebook, don be bothered abt it, folding paper crane, planning my time, setting targets, reading, going out with frenz... etc etc... to say, these motivation last for a while onli. how?? Humans r emotional creatures, when the emotion overcome our li3 zhi4, and the mind is being drifted away again n all these doesnt help le.

Maybe I didnt put in enough efforts ba. Must put in more effort!!! I jus don noe how to hate or dislike anybody. If i would dislike a person, maybe the emotions will calm down faster? I also don gif judgement. Wanted to judge that the person is realli no good, but without actual facts, it realli unfair to the person. Also, all ppl might make mistakes, thus, give everybody a chance n don sterotype ppl. Do I still crave for anything? or I am jus being too innocent le?

Regardless, i am tired. When things are getting realli bitter, I will gif up. Set a target for myself. If things/work r still like tat, I will find alternative out... I dislike like the feeling of being treat like transparent, without any communication. So low EQ, do thing until like tat. How old le? realli wu2 liao3. Still i wont take the intiviate as I am jus tired. I am lookin forward to the day when I can completely let go! As I realli find myself very the silli...~ Y still being affected by it? When 6 months had alr past? It's jus an on n off emotion battle.

Nvmind, once i have enough rest, I sure will be okie de! Find back the once happi me!

不会可惜

Perhaps, 少了一个他，这样的朋友也不会可惜。On n off de, I felt disturbed... especially when I am feelin tired. Felt hard concentrating on my own stuffs. After quite long le... @ times it is still affecting me. I think is bcos of the hurt ba, more of the hurt than other factors... I think if we don see each other would be fine. Realli felt like deleting the contact from my list of contacts and accounts. But, still watfore? Will it help? Like, I ask my fren 2 scold me, they don wan, n asked me watfore? Y scold me? Ya, watfore? no point.

Wat am i busy with?

1. Studies: Lessons to attend, assignment to hand in, Online quiz... Must start studying for exams le. There are not enough leave left for me to take for study. This semester realli had to work doubly hard!

2. Work: Learnin new things at work... Trying to understand more stuffs and pushing th ahead. Felt a bit of demoralized when things are put to a halt and I have no control over it.

3. Exercise: Souring for new classes to attend. Seems like available classed R full or the timin don match! Wanin to join tennis or Hip Hop, but couldnt find avaliable classes.

4. Technical stuffs: Bought a new notebook! I is nice! Happi when I see it... However, this happiness last a while onli. I guess, physical things will make me happi for a moment, as I am motivated by other things ba. Like my self satidfication in work/studies/life... etc. Haben go the time to unpack n play with that yet.

5. Going out: No matter how busy, this is a must! Cannot jus study study study, work work work!

6. Facebook: Actualli... jus surfin around... At times, I also don noe wat I am doing inside. Jus starin at the page n clickin around.

7. N lot of other things..... ! N now, go to pack up n rush out le! Time management!!! Tat somethin I must realli do!!!!

The Real You

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

cant get 2 slp

Was so happi that there is a 1 week break from lesson. Was jus hopin to sleep early everyday! Who noe... now I jus cant get to sleep!!! Jus now at 10+, I am feelin so tired... shut down comp, laze in bed till now! sobz... Wat botherin me? Nothing leh~~~ Maybe jus now ate too full le... tat y cant get to sleep... Tom would be a long day at work de, there r things to work on and meeting. Would I be floating again? sobz.

Finally!

Finally, I had completed all my TMA that is due for this 1/2 semester!!! Realli great! 2day for the next few hours, I can realli relax le... Loong time didnt do someth that I realli enjoy.. like drawing.. watching a concert.. n... i don noe what le... Like I had been rushin, copping with things tat I forgot my preference le?

While working on the assignment, my concentration time frame is very short. I jus cant sit still to put my full concentration on this one task. I need to do many things at a time to effectively work well. Like, i would still be in facebook, playing games, msn chatting. A must that I must on the radio. I cant work well when it is super quiet. Ya, unless I am rushin for my stuffs, I dislike to be disturb.

Slowly, I appreciate writing. All my TMAs required some form of essay writing. I am alr very used to the process of analyzing, thinking thr the information that i had n to put them into words, into essay. It is fun trying to link them together to have a structural flow throughout. Thr all these, I am acquiring another new skills. I felt that my writing style skills slowly improved, as during work time, I need to write a lot. Think n try to express out clearly in emails.

Later, got to go pack my books and be prepared for another new module. Let me grab a breath now 1st, b4 startin on another new start.